abundance?

Jennifer and I have spent a few evenings with Demetri
now. Getting to know him and he us. She is very
concerned about his sleeping outside when she has
a perfectly warm, DRY place. (it's her hospitality
gift kicking in)
Anyway one night she and I were talking and she
wondered if Demetri felt like he was receiving
abundantly from God? This God he had given his whole
life over to, a life of complete surrender. Did he
feel like he was being abundantly provided for when
he sleeps outside?!
I wondered that too.
We asked him about it last night during art night
in which we all were painting and colleaguing, and
as soon as the words came out of my mouth I realized
true abundance isn't about stuff. Duh. But, it isn't
even about comfort.
I think that living in abundance we imagine is
separate from those who live sacrificially. Like
you give up your abundance for the greater good?
You do receive treasures in heaven, but on earth
in order to live in abundance you have stuff that makes
life more comfortable.
I think of Joyce Meyer or Craig Groschel, they have been
abundantly blessed. They use their gifts to minister
to God's people and it also provides them with a
comfortable lifestyle.
What I realized last night was that that kind of
abundance not only will be eaten by moths but, you can
not have true abundance unless you understand the
heart of God, and what he would consider abundantly
blessed.
There are a lot of things going through my head and
heart right now. It feels like an awakening of myself
with things even bigger than this understanding, but
if anyone in the world is abundantly blessed,
it is me.
The driving force of His being, the desire of His heart,
God at His core is Relational.
Above all else love.
Without neighbors love is useless, it takes at least two
to experience and express love.
Oh, relationally I am SO blessed.
I am abundantly blessed.
I have no job, no husband, no kids.
I don't own a home and my car is lame.
I haven't bought new clothes in 2 months.
I don't own land or jewelry or have a 401k.
I don't have health insurance.
I'm not famous or thin.
I AM abundantly blessed because I have all of you,
and this Christmas I get it.
I am overwhelmed by the abundance of love and support
and encouragement I receive from you all.
I am astounded at the experiences you all allow
me to be part of by being in each other's lives.
I can not put in words the value each of you adds to
the total abundance I experience daily.
Each of you is God's gift of abundance to me and I
am eternally thankful, to you, and to Him.