it's funny how things change.
how we change.
i think this is the focus for my first
book. actually, the way we refuse
to change.
according to His will and direction.
often it is too painful and too dark
and we run.
sometimes we seek and seek and
we never find the right tools to help.
i sit here as living proof that if
you let Him... you can change.
i feel balanced in a time of uncertianty
and change. and that is a miracle.
balance does not mean everything is
comfortable or that i have answers
about what tomorrow holds.
i do know that if i get to wake up
i'm going to lunch with my mom and
i'm looking forward to it and 2 weeks
ago that would not have been the case.
balance is being healed and having
relationships restored and all i did
was to heed His advice.
balance is having one of those thorns
come up AGAIN and it makes you want
to puke, but only for a minute, and
then instead of losing sleep, you let
it go.
balance is allowing yourself the time
to crash and lie on your face and then
allowing Him to lift you up and give you
the energy to carry on with a light heart.
balance is having dreams and hoping in
them and continuing with everyday as if
you were already living your dream.
balance is having people who know you
encourage you and listen to you groan
and then pray for your joy and peace.
from the first entry here until today
these things read like a roller coaster.
i guess that is part of the balance.