ah martha

Well I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.
I hope you were well fed and thankful for it.
I was. I ate my fill while being surrounded by
my family, and then I took a nap.
I realized something about myself too...
I'm Martha. You know in the story of the
two sisters who have Jesus over for dinner, Mary
and Martha. One of them is rushing around the
kitchen worrying about the food and making sure
everything is done at the same time and that
the house is clean. The other is just sitting with
Jesus and talking. When Martha asks Jesus to tell
her sister to help her out Jesus says that Mary
has chosen well. Meaning that what was
important was to enjoy the presence of the
Savior, not worry about what He thinks of
her house.
I always pictured myself as a Mary type. Surely
I would be so deep in spiritual conversation with
Jesus that I wouldn't even notice there was work
to be done.
Thanksgiving day proved me a Martha for sure!
My schedule got thrown off by not being able to
get in the bathroom in time, and in the middle
of prep work my sister had apparently run off to
the store. She also did not have many of the
utensils I needed to prepare the dishes I was
responsible for. She warned me to shape up my
attitude. I tried.
I never relaxed though. Even when it was all
done and it was so good and my immediate
family, who is never together, were all around
the table, I just wasn't there. Then everyone
fell asleep and I went to my room for a nap
and when I came down it was over.
I have control issues. I wonder if they
influenced Martha's life choices as much as
they seem to have influenced mine.

control = fear of failure = pride