i can't believe it's been so long. i imagine no one
is even reading this anymore. i guess it doesn't
matter since most of it will get used in the book
at some point i figure.
anyway it's funny how things with God can just
change on a dime. it's also funny how if you let
Him He can heal you to the point of being able to
accept the change without too much drama.
i had once felt like there were things i couldn't
do without a husband. there were other things
i didn't want to do without one.
today... it's not even on my radar.
i mean i still want that but there are so many
exciting things on the horizon and for me today
just the way i am those things are mine.
it's not even the certianty of specific things.
just the hope of waking up tomorrow and having
the whole day and using it to move forward in mind,
body, and spirit.
i sat in church tonight and realized that i'm not
supposed to go there anymore.
it's been a long time since i was on a different page
than the pastor of the church i was attending.
i started the application process for the peace corp
and for elic - english language institute china.
there are pluses and minuses for each so i'm just
knocking on the doors.