i'm afraid to lean to that side
i don't trust that it will hold me.
the other side is much stronger
from years of being the only thing
that held me.
i hold myself up with this other side
using my own strength to stand.
i heard very clearly today
do all that i can do
then stand.
even with that side out front
if all of the weight is on the other side
i'm still standing in my own strength.
if i fearfully put pressure on that side
and trust that it will hold
and move the other side to the back a little
and choose for it to let go;
then all i am really doing is acting in line with
the truth.
and i know just enough about You to know
that You will hold.
under the greatest pressure
You will hold.
after immaturity is
doubt.
after doubt is
proof.
proof sometimes hurts.
guide me gently into maturity
as i learn the new way of walking
right foot first.