it's interesting that i've been here several months now
and my life has all but come to a stand still.
i had grand imaginings about what it meant to choose
what i wanted from life. i never considered it would
be so hard or put so deeply in touch with who i am and
how i see myself.
i have decided 2 things i know for sure.
1. even if i have to let go of all of the things i hold dear
and am used to keeping me company, in order to find
for myself deep purpose and strength, i am willing.
2. even if i consider myself too fat to be loved, i will in no
way settle for anything shy of complete adoration in the
spirit of one Jane Austin or William Shakespeare.
for these acceptances i hold my head high as i walk down
the street and i look deeply into the eyes of each person
i love knowing i may not set eyes on them for at least a
little while.