I was talking to my cat, Oscar, the other day and I said, "Things
with me will always change up, but I will always love you." God
piped in and said, "Me too."
I was speaking to my cat out of the things I had going on in my
own head. Again facing the issue of not having a job which means
there is an issue with income which leads to all kinds of worry and
pointless figuring. These times always make me start looking for
the next thing. Not only in the job area but the living area and the
area of which continent to live on.
I have had what to the eyes of the world (and my family) seems
to be a wandering life. Moving from job to job and state to state.
Traveling all over the world sharing His love. I never quite seem
to have a plan or a purpose. Until it's over that is.
I had thought that having been through this exact thing so many times
it would be easier to deal with. But when you lose a job, and by the
way it was the best job I had ever had, you feel that loss. I was sad
not only for me this time, but for the people who had been helped by
that program. I had felt some ease where money was concerned and
that I can tell you is not easy to let go of. I had started to feel like a
productive member of society again. And then it was gone.
I know, because I have lived it, that God is the ultimate provider. He
is the ultimate care taker. He is the the lover of my soul and the joy
of my spirit. Even with all of this experience and belief and new founded
trust it is still a hard thing to face; this being without a job.
I was assuring my beloved cat that no mattes what happens I will look
after him and always love him.
It's nice to be reminded by The big guy himself that He feels the same
way about me.