i felt so cute in this outfit! of course i can see now that it is not flattering at all and indeed if you took away my hair and my fashion sense, well let's just say that maybe if the michelin man had better fashion he would look better too.

i got to go with tom to the hospital here where he had been hired to photograph their new da vinci machine. it's amazing. and expensive. the dr. sits at the controls, which are behind me, and the patient is on a table across the room.

speaking of expensive...the support letters are out. i'm nervous! i have so often been worried about money that even when the most exciting things are going on in my life and God is right with my world... i can always worry about money.

i come from a line of people who control their money and in some ways of course the money controls them. on the other side of the line there is lack of control and loss of credit. i have managed to fall somewhere in the middle but i never feel quite free of the worry. like i am never doing it right enough. and this is just so stupid!

God has had my back in every occasion where money is concerned! even when He didn't give it to me he gave it to my dad and sister and mom and amy and dani and ang and ash and chris and tasha and tom and... seriously that is just a few off the top of my head! what in heaven's name is there to worry about?!

so today i claim to all of you that i refuse to allow satan to steal my joy in this time of my life and i plead the blood of Jesus over my finances and humbly ask forgiveness for my past financial mistakes, stinginess, and lack of obedience and stewardship (and my future ones). i pray for a clean slate in which he cannot bring to mind those past issues or future worries and bind the ones sent to use that against me.

i give thanks to the most high God who has not only said in His word that He would provide, but has proved time and again in my life that it is true. i thank Him for my finances now and the ones i need for the future and for the opportunity to depend even more deeply on Him.

i rejoice with the ones i love for the times he has already provided and wait hopefully and expectantly for Him to do it over and over again in the future.

AND when it doesn't look the way i thought it would or come in the time i think it should i, in advance, choose to praise His name and look without fear for His perfect plan instead of doubting and worrying!

therefore now there is no condemnation.

oh thank God for that.

love you all.